Love Conquers all things..........

Life's journey teaches you much

2010-05-13T14:45:00.000-07:00

Having come such a long way, meeting new people, overcoming challenges and the great predicaments of life, building friendships ?, living up to expectations, whether mine or other people's, learning, living and doing things that shape me as a person, I have learned and grown so much as an individual.

So many times, I've wished that I was able to turn back the clock and undo so many things. But life does not always go the way you want it to be. You just have to grow up and live the way God wants you to. Live with humility, never look back, look however, to the One who created you for hope when all hope vanishes. Look to the One who gave you life when all you see in the mirror is someone hateful. How I wish that I could undo so many things in life. Someone once said " Never regret, because what you go through in life, and decisions you make, shape you." Well I agreed then. Not anymore. God gave me the volition to choose, to make choices that glorifies Him. Well, as I live one day at a time now, I know for sure that every choice that I made before this, follows me in so many ways appearing in many forms, a friend, another decision, another crossroad and etc.

As I listen to the words of the song "There's not a friend like the lowly Jesus" playing from my Itunes playlist, I know I have the abundant hope of Jesus Christ, the faithfulness of a Friend who will never ever walk away, the never ending unconditional love of a Father who chose me before I was born. For He is who He is. Magnificent and Holy, Breathtaking, Awesome, Marvelous One.

i want to live everyday for you.

A day with mum, a lifetime lesson learned

2010-04-19T10:39:00.000-07:00

So, I noticed that the last post of mine was dated 10 August 2009. I guess I had been too busy and had nothing to write about really. It would really surprise me if anyone was still following this blog. I decided to write and lay this down today because this is something I want to keep and remember for the rest of my life.

So...as the title reads, " A day with mum, a lifetime lesson learned". I'm sure that this could have been a better worded title. Oh well.

So anyways, I was having dinner with my mum in celebration of my birthday yesterday and I was ranting on and on about how old I was getting. Back when I was 17, I used to think that 23 year- old people were kinda old, and that it would take forever to be 23. But here I was, at the edge of falling into the 23-year-old pit. (it's really not that bad, you just start putting on way and stay unfit forever, haha).
Then, my mum asked me " Why is age so important to you?, why is it so bad and why are u making a fuss?". I just replied by saying that time flew by too fast.

She then looked at me with "that" look, and by "that" I mean really stern , serious, motherly look.

"You know steph, the most important thing in life is to be thankful for what you have,for the every day you have and for all the friends you have with you. Problems will come, but they will end when the time comes. Everyone, brilliant or not, will have problems. BUT THEY WILL END. You have God and He is all you need to cling on."

Alright, I know that the line " be thankful for everything, everyday you have" seems so cliche. As a 23 year old GIRL, i probably have heard that line maybe 30 times. However, this was coming from my mother, someone who has seen so much in life, the dark and ugly side of life, and saying that probably really came from her heart and it was REAL to her. It wasn't cliche or a repeated lesson anymore that meant something but would let slip form your mind. I nearly was in tears because I saw so much behind those eyes, weary, tired eyes. It made me think about how much I had and still could be ungrateful.

I am so proud of my mum and love her to bits.

Malaysia...

2009-08-10T08:50:00.000-07:00

This is a truly sad moment for me.

As I searched for things to keep me occupied for the next 6 hours of work, i stumbled upon a youtube site about the recent Teoh Beng Hock.

The only thing I see on the posted video is just so much of disunity and confusion. Worse, when I read the comments posted by our own fellow Malaysians, I feel so much bitterness and hatred toward one another. Each one calling each other names as though he is better than the other. Each one claiming how good they are and without them, the other race 'dies'.

Just stop fighting. Why focus your energy on defending your race and yourself and humiliating another? Why call people names and belittle another? Oh yeah, I forget. This is what you do best, Malaysia. FIGHT. Label one another as though you were paid a million dollars to do it. You just do it so well. Unfortunately for you, though, my friend, unless you fly to another country for good, you are just going to be stuck here with us and them. So, why don't you wake up and smell the 'chicken rice' from the right and the 'beautiful rendang' from the left and the nice Indian food from across your house.

STOP FIGHTING.

2009-06-25T11:50:00.001-07:00

Anyways, to sum up the past year that I have been so completely busy with no time at all to update this blog,

Psalm 13:4-5
I've thrown myself headlong into your arms
I'm celebrating your rescue.
I'm singing at the top of my lungs,
I'm so full of answered prayers.

Yes, many things have come my way and yes, I have , am and have yet to tackle problems beyond my capabilities. But.. I KNOW GOd WILL SEE ME THROUGH!

NEXT!
And yes. I still haven't figured out how to colour my fonts. Darn pathetic. I have been trying to though for a long time. Oh well.

Finally,

EVERYONE. I WILL BE WRITING A NEWSPAPER ARTICLE FOR THE MALAY MAIL REGARDING THE ......... ... ........ bet u are intrigueed..

stay tuned....

WILL LET U KNOW WHEN I SEND IT IN.

so so down...

2008-09-19T02:00:00.001-07:00

SOOoooOOooOoooo........

how's everyone doing??? great i hope...a quick update.....

1) Purse got stolen by someone not very smart. - Guna credit card pun nak tanye ' can i not sign?' Wah...meh si ah?? that's simple rule la...must sign or else how?(my english is so CINA!AHAHAH)... Somemore so smart, try to sign my name all over the paper..sure lah ppl suspect something. Anyways, i went hunting that dude who stole my purse and ran around PYRAMID the entire day resulting to nothing.(I BOUGHT A SHIRT THOUGH IN THE MIDST OF MY SEARCH..LOL)

2) NEXT, feelign extremely down. so get this, ppl tell me not to listen to lecturers if they are not relevant. Well, if he or she is someone u respect then i guess you just hafta listen. So anyways, I got banged by my lecturer about some stufffff... Well, since i can't say too much, i'll just say, if u are an artist, you would never want ppl to say soemthing not nice about your art. Or soemthing else.. DOn't wanna think la... U wanna call me FEI PO also i tak kisah. but ............ ................. it's time to GO TO THE BEACH!

3)WHAT IS it with drivers these days?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????? i feel liek a monster on the road. like my evil twin's gonna jump on someone and slice his throat. WRONG! slice HER throat. It's always a HER. WAH....!!! COURTESY LAHHHHHH....

4) I LIKE MY TOES.THEY'RE CUTE.

5) I cannot wait to spend the day alone again........haihhhhh.....

6) Blogspot is giving me so much problems. cannot upload pictures. hmmm...help if u know..thanks

OH ONE MORE THING!!!! MY LAPTOP WAS LITERALLY BOILING THAT DAY. had that boiling/ heating sound coming from it. Super loud , i could hear the sound even when i was playing the piano... Die man. i think i left my lappie on too long...teeheee..so shy....

If u are reading this, tell me, why are ppl so judgemental about everything?!!!!!!

Back at last.

2008-09-04T00:59:00.000-07:00

Yo Mum, Bros, Sistaz, uncles, aunties, Boyfriend, Boyfriends, Girlfriend, Girlfriends, aunties, dudes.................

Eeekkkkk..I completely forgot that my blog existed....teeheee..(shy)...So after being MIA for such a long time, I have decided to post something since someone said "stephanie's next post will be when she gets married, and titled 'best day of the year' ".. Whoever you are...hahaha..YOU ARE WRONG!!!!

So anyways, lately we have had few aunty gatherings-ying roe, lynn and eva are the aunties. Apa -apa pun ada. Steamboat, mahjong sessions, dinners, photo sessions(i dislike the word cam-whoring) and crazee momentss.... Gosh, do i look like the colour brown to you???that's what I was told....and i don't mean the skin colour....haloooo....!!!! Anyways, moving on...I discovered how outdated I was yesterday. Everyone's doing online shopping except me.. So for the first time in my life, I placedtwo orders from ying roe's boutique..Go check it out. www.whimsicallane.com Felt greatt and can;t wait for more!!!muahahhaha....

Now the sad part. Lynnn and Roe will be leaving this week. One on sunday and the other sat. Now, I wonder how long will it be till I see them again since I will be going off too to another place. Gosh, miss them I will. Big part of me will go missing and empty. Shucks. a phase in life.

I love you all so much.

Next, I am leaving in 3 months. EGAD!! TIME FLIES.

Next, I JUST RECEIVED AN EMAIL FROM COLL THAT I HAVE NOT PAID MY FEES. RUBBISH I TELL U. HMMM...........

NEXT, I am so into gospel music now. amazing.

To sum it all up, god has been extremely amazing and faithful to me. I can't ever explain the way I feel about Him. Yes, I have been an idiot for doing stupid things and messing up, but boy, is He so ever faithful. Was listening to some music in the car when the rain was so so heavy, and the words just touched me.

'For whatever you take me through, I 'll spend my always with You'

AMAZING-

worst day of the year...

2008-03-12T10:51:00.000-07:00

Today, is the worst day of the year. PERIOD.

I had the biggest audition in my life and it was a total FLOP. To think i practised for it and made a complete idiot of myself.... I feel completely pathetic. I honestly thought that it would be better than today.Silly, naive me.Even practices were betterrr..... A whole lot better...

I don't know how to feel or what to feel...

Like what my friend said " what can u do about it?what's done's done.....NO!!NOT TRUE...

I could:

1)feel bad for 3 days
2)completely ignore my good friend(piano) for a year
3) be bitter and wallow in pity

BUT...I choose not to...:)

I did what I could and prepared as much as I could. So, it was a bad audition...SO WHAT? Shucks....I wish I felt that way...

Nevertheless, I guess i'lljust haf to practise harder and longer...

:)

so perfect.

2008-02-21T01:33:00.000-08:00

My life is perrrfect......

ya right....not even close.....not even close to close.......not even close to close to close.
feeling so lost and empty.

don't like what i 'm in now. life goes on. i need to move on. and move on i will.

sayonara.

it's time for something new and fresh.

think positive.
think positive.
think positive.

I love You Jesus. Thank you for always being there. Love u so so much.....
I need You so much.Especially now.

more ...

2007-12-15T17:18:00.000-08:00

AMAGAD!!!!!

it's so cold here....it's about -8.......arghhhh...my lipsss are cracking...it looks even bigger and thicker than before since a thin red layer has formed over the top and bottom of my lips coz of the dry weather...aiyohhh...like angelina jolie...i mean the LIPS..!!!
Yesterday, we put up the christmas tree at my uncle's place with my two other cousins...and today we built a snowman on the deck of the house...yes..everywhere is covered with snow because there was a small snow storm the day before....COLD COLD COLD!!! And the dog just "claimed territory" of the snowman.....hehe....aiyohhh....one yellow spot down at the foot of the snowman....(although no feet la the snowman....)hehhehe...

anyways.....I miss home and the people back home...sigh.....although i love it here...so much.....

the start of the snow storm...

Our thai fren,Mai

In some Thai restaurant where we desoperately needed some asian food!!

Aiyah..i was uploading another 6 pics..but tak jadi...lazee-LAH......

tatanara all...

here BABEH!!

2007-12-08T23:44:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone...I am here.!!!it's cold and cold and cold.....and its nice..hehe....finally..after 24 hours of flying...i managed to stay alive...tat doesn't even count the waiting time during the transits...AHHH....flat backside already..

newaysss..the beautiful place...

gtg..tata..

love u all.

The tragic tale of Cuppycake....

2007-09-17T05:07:00.000-07:00

Dear all,

I would like to share with you the life of Cuppycake, my sister's beloved tortoise.....

A week ago, I found it dead....i am pretty sure it died of 'ketiadaan air(water okay..not AIR!!)'....I thought it was a pretty gruesome death. Cuppycake's eyes had dried up and sort of 'evaporated'.....

Welll, they say a picture paints a thousand words......

I have at least ten pictures.....ehehee......

This is the dead tortoise....

A closer view.......

And this is its home.

Observe its eyes...oh wait!!what eyes?!!

Its shelll...all dried up.....like a dried and hard prune....

It looks liek a dinasour..hehe

No comments...I can't believe my sister did this...

From a different view...

Good OL' CUPPYCAKE.......
We'll remember you.

EMO POST

2007-09-13T01:33:00.001-07:00

i miss hui lynn.......

T.T

2007-09-06T09:48:00.001-07:00

Currently, I am having this constant urge of having a glass of T.T a day....hmm..or maybe for every meal.

WHat is T.T??

It stands for TEH TARIK..(rawk on babeh!!!)

You see, the good thing about teh tarik is that it goes well with almost anything you are having; whether snack or meal. I certainly will not say no to a cup of teh tarik when I am having my Mee goreng and certainly not when I am having my fries. Cookies and bread are definitely good with teh tarik. Shucks I love it....Yet to discover the mamak with the best TT....hehe...
The only problem is.....sigh.....

1) It increases your weight- the worst problem of all...every women's worst nightmare...
2) You incur the risk of getting diabetes by the age of 25.
3) You will definitely age faster- don't wanna look like michael jackson at the age of 20.

So why drink it???

1) Because it's cool!!!!....you get to show of your co-ordination skills. You seee...not many ppl have this talent...Guys out there who wanna 'kau' any girl can pick up this "very cool" talent...hehe...(If you read carefully, this has got nothing to do with the question..Oh well....)

2)It looks professional(THis is sooo lame...groannnn*)...Open your laptop and order a nice glass of tt....Sip it slowly while you pretend to be so engrossed in your "work" or reading ......QUite impossible lah.. unless the mamak nearby your home has wifi or something...

Enough of all these nonsense...

Finalllyyyy....A toast to all 'TEH TARIK MAKERS' or whatever you call them....and to all TEH TARIK LOVERS!!....
(I seriously have no idea who this pretty lady is....the right lady wth the right pose...)

And FINALLY,THE BEAUTIFUL TT......

Sorry all..for the lame post.....haha...just entertaining myself in moments of boredom such as this...or such as NOW??

Time=never ENOUGH!

2007-08-31T08:47:00.000-07:00

I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS!!

Pics!

2007-07-30T01:37:00.000-07:00

Here are the pics! Enjoy....

Love you all!!

Mr David Beckham- the one who made it happen for me

Matthew- The other other one who made it happen for me

MR Isaac Ravi- The other other other one who also made it happen for me

Lovely red kristyyyy-the other other other other one who made it happen for me.

Sri Petalig Cee Gee...haha

MIss Gorgeous Saw

Sharon.Eva.JANINE.me

Lynn and eva

I really hate uploading pics man...3 hours to upload these pics....ah!!!

COLLEGE BALL.

2007-07-30T01:01:00.000-07:00

Sat.28th July.
The First ever COllege Ball!!

Anyways.... The whole committee did a great job! There wasn't a dull moment in that room. YC is full of pretty and gorgeous girls...really...Love it.
I loved the ballroom dancing especiallyyy....WHoaaa..If i ever try doing it...Sure backside cramp...haha..

Pics..are on the way!

Thoughts...

2007-07-17T05:16:00.000-07:00

Ever felt like the whole world is creeping inwards giving you no air to breathe and you simply just feel like giving up.....pass out.......and die...........

Life is life......life means imperfection.scars.wounds.ALTHOUGH...this is the negative side of what life is..there is also the positive side....

Today, however...I just feel like giving up.

I don't know what to do. I have too many limitations and struggles. And everything is my fault. So there is just no one to blame but my self. For once, I follow and do what I feel like doing and I must say..it is a pretty big screw up...

I guess I just need to be away from everything.wanna escape....

Alive!!

2007-07-08T09:50:00.000-07:00

Anyways...

latest update.

I had my appendix cut out from my body last saturday. And to think that that small little organ can cause so much pain to you. I am glad it's out.
Whee..so i can play so hard and not worry a thing about that miserable grey tuby thing...
Just a thought....whoever said that jumping and running about after meals or food can cause appendicitis?? Everyone tells me that...Just wondering if that was true...

Next....I'd say that having this minor operation can be a BLESSING IN DISGUISE. Because of the pain..I don't have to go for my audition!! Wheeeeeeee...It hurts though....the price you have to pay...hahaha..

Okay....I know..lately..my blog is rather dead....no pics and all..so i decided to bless you guys with a picture of how the appendix looks like...
enjoy....hhehe

I know it's kinda gross...but it's not mine...I just found the least gross picture okay!!....
Lost your appetite yet?Bet Jeannette would just love this..h.ehe..
Love you guyss

Everything in Your MiGHty Hands

2007-06-27T08:51:00.000-07:00

Things in the past, Things yet unseen,
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true.
All of my hopes and all of my plans,
My heart and my hands are lifted to You

As we sang this at prayer meeting today, It dawned upon me that I could rely on no one but Him alone.

Everything in the future always seems blur and so bleak.
Nothing is ever certain.

Still trusting You GOd.

Thank God I've found you

2007-06-01T08:22:00.000-07:00

Sighhhh..

I found my rm600 .....!!!!
Thank you God for wisdom in tryin to catch the person who took my money.
I really hope that the person will never do it again...and will not even think about doing it...

Anyway...I had a photo shoot at a studio for a magazine. It's the august edition and its for 17 mag...
hehe...It was really fun posing (ahahahahha)...i felt a bit awkward though..And the good thing is i didn't have to do make -up on my own. i could have been a disaster. Fashion disaster/fashion sin....
There was once my friend(it was a guy oo-KAY) ...he looked at my eyes and asked " Why your eyeliner tak sekata wan?"....

..............
..............

I don't know how to put LAH!!!

Neways, it is about time I did somethign about this !! I think I neeedd to go learn.Suggestions?!!!

Bad day.

2007-05-28T23:52:00.000-07:00

I am having such a bad day.
Someone stole rm600 from me.
And its not my money.

May the wrath of God be upon you,thief.

I will catch you.

Cuts and watermelons

2007-05-25T09:27:00.000-07:00

Ever felt so hurt that no matter how much salt u add to the wound, it won't hurt anymore?

It's like adding watermelon juice to the wound.

Anways...I was at my "college canteen" today..the small mamak outside my college.. hehe...the uncle, known as jaffar, cut his hand today while opening the can of milk. If I am not mistaken, it was a rather deep cut and blood just fept flowing out. And to my amazement and awe and everything else, he "sapu-ed" the coffee powder on the wound.Must have hurt. tsk tsk. CUN LEH...ALL THESE OLD REMEDIES.....

anwayys..that is beside the point..

I have been hurt again.

wats wrong

2007-05-18T07:07:00.000-07:00

WHAT'S WRONG WITH my pictures!!!
so irritating...

anyways..
How's everyone doing??
Has anyone heard jian shen's LAME JOKE!!!

What does "f" mean to a musician? It means forte...

SO what does "ff" mean?....or "f + f"?? same thing okay...

try gues.ss......hahahahaha........

(Secondly....Just a thought.....If you were a fruit...what fruit would you be??(a fresh fruit k...no rotten fruits allowed)

hehehe....

I think I would be a mango....Always sweet and smooth.....

haahahahahahah...love u all...Don't forget to tell me what fruit you are....hehe..

sigh...

2007-05-09T19:45:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone...Long time no see??
hahaa
anyways...
just a few days ago..i was looking through some photos..and BOY...TIME FLIES....LIKE SUPER FAST...SUPER SUPER FAST!!
COME ON!!I JUST TOUCHED THE BIG 2!!I am now 20....!!!Aioyoyoyoy

ANYWAYSSSS....

Back to the 20-year-old me....Life has been pretty interesting...Study-sleep-eat-study-sleep-eat-study-sleep-eat-study-sleep-eat...yeah...life is interesting...
Really looking forward to hols in June....woohoo!!!!

Yo Lynn....last day tomorrow!!mean we can mahjong soon!!!!!WOOHOO!!!!!!

LOTSA love.......
steph

hello

2007-04-16T04:50:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone!!
I know its been a long while ago since i updated.

Gosh..I M STRESSED..TO THE MAX..
I have a performance this fri but i am totally freaked out.. Why?
Because..

1) I can't play in front of people.(really!!..no kidding)
2) My solo is terrible
3) Sweaty fingers
4) Butterfly-ee stomach

Anyways...
a quick update...

The gig in singapore was good, though I felt we could have done better. :)

I love my accounability group...

Still not over the fact that i dropped 100 ringgit ....which was supposed to be for my new shoes...

Earth WInd and Fire tribute is this thursday!!!

I spilled coffee on my handphone ....double sigh...susah mau dengar sekarang...haha

I am still at college now...hehe...its 8 pm...
Dreading to go home.

Love you all...
see ya....tata

borreeeddd

2007-03-18T23:07:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!!
It's me....AGAIN!

Guess what I'm doing??

BLOGGING lah...D-U-H!!!!!

sorry guys..i am just so bored. In college now waiting for my class to start. If u are complaining about having funny timetables, gues what...I am in the midst of my 5-hour break!!!!!!!

SINCE I HAVE TIME....I mean A LOT of time...
I would like to recommend a good show...it's called YOU've Got Mail....has anyone watched that movie yet? I think i have watched that movie like 15 times.....Absolutely a must to watch it.....AICHO.so romantic.funny. silly.hehe.

And.........

another good movie would be "BLOOD DIAMONd".....tsk tsk.......really good...

Please drop a msg okay or a comment..or a topic we can all discuss about...lol...soemthign intresting....and make sure its a CLEAN TOPIC YA GUYS.!!!HAHAAH....jk jk..

reminder for all: memory verses, do not forget to memorize ....i have only memorized 3...SINNER!!!.....at least i am making an effort.....O-OO-kay!!..

love you all....

life...unfair

2007-03-07T03:32:00.000-08:00

This has been a very trying week for me. I am trying to undo the mistakes that I have made but i can't seem to find the strength or wisdom ..I cannot talk to anyone about it at all. I am at the "jalan buntu". So difficult this journey. I don't know how I ended up here on this path.

Courage, where are you?

My dear friends, mr sensible and ms wisdom...where are you?

I am happy...and yet a part of me is torn. This is really hard. I need to do something, I cannot compromise. That's what I need to do. I hate myself for this..

Dear God, I am trying. Sorry for letting You down........

weird week

2007-03-04T15:55:00.000-08:00

Sigh...It was an emotion-filled week for me. awkward.happy. confusing. Decisions....Arghhhh..If only circumstances were different. I wish.

Deny yourself.
Sacrifice.

Judah's wedding

2007-02-10T08:53:00.000-08:00

I look around only to see people elegantly dressed up with big cheerful smiles on their faces. All the girls were beautiful and the guys looked so handsome ...every single one of them. Now I can say that it was all worth it getting all stressed on what to wear and which colour shoes to put on...lol..Everyone looked amazing. The groom looked excited and a little nervous though he denied that several times... The bride looked like a princess, so beautiful and charming.

I loved it when they read their vows. It meant just so so much...especially the part that says "till death do us part"..I loved the way those simple words were said with so much of meaning, as though their lives depended on those few words. It's amazing how powerful love it.

Nyways...pictures form the wedding!

Jhim and I...Ushering at 3rd floor...

Mr Judah aka the groom right in the middle..

Joanna, Gloria , Shu Xian and Me!!

CHris, Jhim and Sexy...ushers as well..

Dearest Cherie Boey.Ilover you so much!

Amazing Great Form 4 Leaders...

Pastor Judah is one lucky man..:)

What an emotion-filled day.

back

2007-02-01T07:31:00.000-08:00

I just got back from a little town...malacca...more like state...hehe

It made me realize the importance of family and how much we need to spend time with one another.

Chinese New Year is coming..WEEeeeee!! SO fun...Will be meeting up with relatives soon..

Thanks goodness I am not married. Guess y?(WInner gets a cookie from me..lol)

Why??

2007-01-31T03:33:00.000-08:00

Why??

Why do brothers fight one another?

Why do sisters hate each other?

Why do mothers curse their OWN daughters?

Who do friends backstab and quarrel with one another?

Why do WE look at our fellow brothers and sisters with disdain and jealousy?

Why do we say " Hey, you look great today! " when we didn't mean a single word?

Why do we kill each other with cold-hearted and harsh words ?

Why? Why? Why?

On a larger scale.....

Why do we not pray for our neighbouring countries when catastrophe strikes them so hard that living didn't mean a thing anymore?

Why do we fight against our own people because of circumstances we cannot change?

Why can't we look at our brother in the eye and say three simple words of " I forgive you " ?

WHY???? Because..............

confidence?

2007-01-26T17:06:00.000-08:00

Have you ever said the wrong things at the wrong time?Embarrassed yourself in front of the wrong person and all you wanted to do at that time was sink into that cold marble floor beneath you? Well, I say this with all the confidence and pride that I HAVE. A MILLION TIMES. You have no idea how many times I have said to the ground "swallow me up, swalllow me up, NOW!!" just because I had uttered the wrong thing.

The fact is, we are fully human AND HUMAN BEINGS MAKE MISTAKES, the normal humans, i mean(dolphins do not count).It doesn't help when you are with your crush and nervousness makes you blab out the worst thing you could ever say.

When I was younger, mistakes like these would make me feel shy and scared of speaking my mind out.I would rather shut up and listen just to avoid people laughing at me. I soon grew out of that and had that SO-WHAT-IF-I-SAID-THE-WRONG-THING attitude or the I-DON'T-CARE attitude.DON'T GET ME WRONG, I mean this in a very good way. Now I just laugh it off when people tease me. Getting all uptight and worked up would only make me feel worse,I realised.

I will not,WILL NOT share with with you what just happened yesterday-Friday. OHHHHHHHHHHHHH THE HUMILIATION. But i just laughed it off. Because of that, i sort of managed to cut the tragic humiliation down by 50%.woopidoo!!

I am happy, single and confident!(at least that is what I think, the confident part, I mean)
Mode: STONER mode. WORK is piling up.And I do not know where to start
College rawks. Just had icebreakers yesterday with our seniors. Friendly bunch I'd say.

Sayonara.....Chai Chien...:)

College

2007-01-19T07:07:00.000-08:00

The week has flown by. The first week of college is over.
I am so excited. Everything I see, hear and learn from college is all such a new experience for me.I lurvvveee it.

My seniors tell me that I will get to know everyone in college by next week. LOL. I am in a very small college.Just one brown building with five floors.YUP...YOU GOT THAT RIGHT!!.IT'S ONE FIVE-STOREY BUILDING!!HOWEVER....

...inside the four walls of this building are the greatest,accomplished and gifted musicians who are adept and proficient in every single area of music.
YEP..i AM exaggerating a bit..one teeny weeny bit...LOL

There are great musicians and just so talented. I was awestruck when I saw a classmate of mine playing the guitar with such skill and passion, and all effortlessly. Oh the jealousy!!!!!

State: Still jealous(in a good way)

I neeeedd a metronaum....

Petrol is a killer. I hate it.

Leaving for Leaders' retreat tomorrow morning at 9.30.I just cannot wait!!.

A mother's heart

2007-01-18T08:14:00.000-08:00

A Mother's Heart

I'm so sorry, girls. I have no choice.I know it's hard and painful but it hurts me even more.Circumstances make me this way. I don't expect you to understand what I am going through now but this I promise you. I will never forsake nor leave you . You will never feel unloved nor unwanted. I will give my best, my all to raise you up to be the best you can be. I can't give you much but my love, my everlasting abundant love. You may never taste luxurious living but take my word, you will have enough. Your tiny stomachs will never go hungry and your skinny limbs never cold. Your tiny hands will always feel the warmth of my palms, because I will never let you go, not once.Your petite-sized bodies will never grow dry of hugs because I will always be there with arms wide open to embrace you. And finally, your lovely-shaped little ears will always always hear the words, " I love you". I do. I never stopped loving you.

When God put you in my womb, I knew of the great life ahead. One full of never ending joy and delight. You brought me overflowing joy through all the pain and always carved that special smile on my face when tears trickled down.

I miss you both. Will see you when I return. It will not be that soon but it is for sure. I hope to see two beautiful ,successful ,young women when I return. Let's just continue holding on.

Beloved mum

2007-01-14T07:24:00.000-08:00

I stared wide-eyed as tears filled my eyes. I was helpless and weak. I could do nothing to lighten her burden. Since when did I become so vulnerable and defenseless. I wish I could kiss away every tear, every worry , every painful moment. I wish.
I admired her courageous and unyielding heart. She never gave up not even for a bit. Despite the brokenness and all the pain, never once did she slack in her role and responsibility. She never allowed herself to be controlled nor be taken in by her never ending problems. And that is why I love her so much.
I held her hand firmly as she walked in and out of busy, hectic offices, dragging me along patiently. On her other hand, she held a humungous bag , woven out of fabric very much like plastic packed with clothes that were for sale.Shameful,you may say, but I say,honourable and admirable. She walked up to every lady present, hoping that she would buy something. And that would make her day.
This was 10 years ago.

As my sister and I clutched her sweaty palms on that odorous, foul-smelling bus, I saw by the determination on her face that all she wanted was for us to be by her side, safe and secured.Hung over her arm was a large bag with 24 books inside. To her,taking us to the library every 3 weeks was necessary and needful. She believed that reading was an important habit to inculcate in us.
This was 12 years ago.

At 20 now, I look back only to realize and understand the love my mother had for me and my sister. Why did we argue and rebel?All she did was love us. If only I had said "I love you" ten times more than I did before. If only. All I have now is the telephone (and 10,000 miles (I think) between us )to say " I love you" every single day. It's a shame that I couldn't even say "I love you" to her face. If I could do things differently, I would. I cannot change the past but I can change the future. And this time, it will be different.

Mum..I love you!!!!!!!

first day of coll

2007-01-10T00:47:00.000-08:00

FIRST DAY OF COLLEGE!!
WEEEEeeeEE....

It was definitely exciting, espcially when I was stuck in the jam for one and a half hours. And then, the part where I had to wait for two hours doing nothing because I had to wait for my English Placement Test. Yeah it was definitely very exciting....YAY.... NOT!!!!!

Things definitely got better as I knew more people. Check this out... There were ten people who came yesterday and two of them were americans, one Iranian, and two from Jakarta, two from Penang and I cannot rememebr the rest. Yeah, so we had lunch together for two hours and talked about things, ourselves and MUSIC..DUH..!!!?!!

And today. The 3rd day.
I had my placement audition. I must say it went quite well. I was kind of intimidated. Everyone there is good. I mean good GOOD....But it went well....:)

Others:

Petrol is killing me.
I can't wait to start classes(This whole week is our orientation week)

MUM IS DOING GREAT.i MISS HER so so much.

the BANKS just can't stop calling me.Sick of it..

the Lord has been good to me

2007-01-03T09:59:00.000-08:00

The Lord has been soooOOOOOooo good to me.
In the past week, I was tested with an ordeal, one that I could not handle on my own. I went through sleepless nights worrying about what i had to do and the consequences that would come if I made the wrong move.
I was desperate and prayed for God's favour upon me, that He would pull me through this situation.
Two days ago, I realized that my problem was just gradually getting less severe. In the midst of this,a miracle,as some people would say, a coincidence, occured. God provided the exact thing I needed and in the exact amount. It, to me, was not a coincidence but God's hand over the matter.

I praise God for what had happened and how He had pulled me through.

All you need to have is just a little faith.:)

Verse of the day:

Numbers 6:24-26
The Lord bless you and keep you, He makes His face shine upon you....He turns His face toward you to give you peace.

Busy December

2006-12-29T08:14:00.000-08:00

Busy December......Hmm..busy busy busy

First...it was camp...14-21st Dec...And it was a great camp...God has been good and really did awesome things ....
I must say, though it was tiring but it was soooooOOOOOoooo worth it.

AND NOW....

Camp pics!!!

Awesome Camp sessions..

The two lovely Slovaks who really blessed us with their presence at camp..:)

Lynn's second birthday as a Christian!!

OUr Mamak Nite and Fashion Show!

Now you know what we do when we are free...OOOooops

My very very wonderful friends...

Finally..home after a whole 9 days...

And my wonderful, always-there-for me friends...Thank you!

God has been really good to us in camp. He never held back what He intended for us to have.
I have a verse for all of you who worked so hard. You guys were awesome and splendid.

Psalms 116:7

Be at rest once more, O my soul,
For the Lord hs been good to you.

He has no doubt blessed us so much. Love Him and Serve Him.

hey everyone

2006-12-22T06:31:00.000-08:00

hey everyone!!
I AM BACK!!!!!

WILL UPDATE YOU GUYS WITH CAMP SOON...!!
love you guys but hate my internet thingee......

love steph

camp is coming

2006-12-11T03:55:00.000-08:00

WOOHO!!!!
CAMP IS IN 2 DAYS!!!!!!

The only thing i am gonna really miss is my family..
sigh...double sigh...

9 days away from home...
sam i guess u will haf to take care of your own self la...eheehe...

always on my mind: mummy

always in my prayers: family

always on my mind (again):chocolate..hehe

always on my mind( again and again): mr teddy.

see ya up there folks...

waiting...

2006-12-11T03:13:00.000-08:00

Have you ever waited and ended up disappointed?

Well, I have.

Have you ever hoped for a miracle and it never appeared?

Well, i have.

Have you ever wondered why every bad thing had to happen to you?

Well, I have.

God has His reasons.
God is always in control.

I hateliars

2006-11-27T02:49:00.000-08:00

I hate liars....

Sometimes people lie for a good reason, and that I am willing to let go. However, if you lie for nothing and for the sake of doing it......then u shall have to face my wrath......
I cannot believe u lied to me about this. You know who you are. Don't think u can put off the whole matter by laughing it off because IT IS NOt GOING TO WORK!!

You of all people..........
arghhhhhhh!!!!....

wrecked

2006-11-25T08:43:00.001-08:00

About me: tired.stressed.annoyed.family-oriented.nothing more than a joke.love God.

I try hard. Try to keep everything in order.To handle issues and problems at home. But it is always not enough. Thankfullym I don't and never bother living up to ppl's expectations. I am through with that. It only makes matters worse. Things are not getting better, it's not only getting harder but more complicated. Ah..You won't ever understand. Yeah, sure everyone sure has their problems and I have mine,and i m sure that yours is way worse than mine. ALl I am doing is just complaining??Nah... just letting go of things in a more 'technical' way...ahahah....I don't wanna complain...but sometimes....it really is not easy.It's like carrying weights not on my feet, but also on my shoulders, arms , ears...nose?haha...yeah....

Try me: Remove the facade that shields my inner self and all u see will be a wrecked tower, still standing talll..but...wrecked..

cheers..

Still, I cannot deny the fact that I have great friends...You know who u are.... always by my side making life a lot easier...:)

New fact: Ambank is my best friend.

UN requited love

2006-11-22T19:54:00.000-08:00

UNrequited Love.

Love.
It either makes you or breaks you.

Love.
It either brings you joy or intense pain.

Love.
It is a choice not a feeling.

Love.
It comes with responsibility and is long-term.

Last night, Jean suggested I wrote on UNrequited Love. I am 100% confident that every single normal person has or will experience what we call Unrequited Love. Unrequited basically means not returned or reciprocated. Conclusion:Unrequited Love is clapping with only one hand.

"I will never forget the anguish and the pain I went through," stated Shiela. Going through that nasty break-up changed her entire being, her character, her personality, her whole self,inside out. She never thought that it would end just like that. To her, he was her breath, her life, her everything. It just didn't make sense how a relationship as firm and steady as this could just vanish within 2 days.

"I love you" didn't mean anything anymore. It was just three empty words. Three pathetic ,meaningless words. It was all a lie. Maybe he did love me.Wasn't love a long term process which involved commitment? Well, I guess not.God help me. The road to recovery is not going to be easy. It's so hard.SO hard to let go. So hard to move on.
Day by day, the life in me seemed liek it was seeping away.I was soulless. Walking and living without hope and motivation. If only I knew, but it is all too late now. I never knew that it hurt this much or I would have thought over and over, not jumping into decisions just liek that. Too bad I never listened to my mum . Too bad I was just too stubborn to listen. Too bad ....Too bad everything....

Love......
Love is patient Love is kind......Love.......conquers all things..

happy bday

2006-11-13T03:50:00.000-08:00

On the 12th Nov, in the year 1987, a very "loud" baby girl was born........19 years later........

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YING ROE!!!!!!

On this very auspicious day, three very very very good friends(if you don't know who....aiyoooohhh) decided to celebrate it for her. After months and months of planning...(hehe..kidding la..not months lah)we decided to give her a special day that she will never forget. Going to church and getting prayed for by Rose was just part of it. We then headed to secret recipe for "THE LUNCH". We sat down , ordered and SUDDENLY......TA-DA!!SURPRISE!!Ivan, Kevin and Jon came ..I mean I knew about it.. It was a surprise for the birthday girl.

After a very satisfying and enormous meal, we ordered "THE CAKE"..NOT JUST ANY ORDINARY CAKE, BUT A CAKE MADE OUT OF SEVEN DIFFERENT SLICES OF CAKES...WHHOOAHHHHHHhhhhHHHHHHHhhhhhh!!!....hehe... Of course, without delay, we jumped into the cake as in..u know...we dug in...hmmm-HMMmmm...IT was gooOOOoood!!

"the cake"

and of course, not forgetting, the surprise of the day...her burfday PRESSIE...

Let's just review the past few days:
ying: I want that dress...cannot! I must buy it...

ying: I DON'T CARE..YOU GUYS MUST BUY IT FOR ME!!THAT'S ALL I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY... PLEAASSEEE...Pweassseeee...i really realllyyyyy want it....
(hehee..this one i added myself)

anyways...we knew she wanted it..so what do we do? GET IT OF COZ..MEI SEI KO-AH...
not giving her what she wants..would be well..you know.....errr....just get to know ying roe..and you shall find out...muahaah

So, we shut her eyes and presented her gift..as usual..must feel first... then... LO AND BEHOLD!...AAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAaAAAAAaAAAaaaaaaa!!! She screamed...yup..you got that right...right in the middle of secret recipe...Its a ying roe thing...:)hehe...

" the dress"

Happy birthday roe!!! I love you!!
Finally this is 4 you!!

sick

2006-11-07T08:21:00.000-08:00

i am SICK....

i miss my mum.....

i miss my dad too...

i am so so tired....my head is spinning

i think i am just gonna lay my head down to rest....

tata......

-preciouslc

my cuties

2006-11-06T01:46:00.000-08:00

On sat...i had a great time with my pre juniors..they are just so innocent and cute..the way they talk and see things..u knwo..from that innocent point of view.... oh how i love them.... Kids...children....AAHHHHHHHhhhhhh..:)they had to draw pics and these is wat you get....hehehe

hehe..the first thing is a sushi...then the next is a drunstick chicken..then an icecream

this is ivan's favourite teacher...cute rite....

and this is angelina's flower with a butterfly on it...

finally..this is andrew's whole family....

And here are the little stars.......:)

gorgeous rite??audrey...

rinnah and audrey

the cheeky boys...hehe

the little angels..:)

dana and dena...:)

little rinnah..audrey and emily

aren't kids such a blessing....there's just so much we can leanr from them.. They are gems....

3rd nov........

2006-11-03T06:18:00.000-08:00

SINCE Rose wasn't around, she gave ORDERS TO buy some stuff. So Kristee and I headed to mv to get all the stuff. It was fun la...its "shopping"...but for work la... After we bought half the stuff...we stopped at mac d for lunch...which is..cool...haha..check the pics out...

HAIYAK!!!!SAMURAI AND HER SWORD....

Oh yeah..i forgot to mention...I saw a really cute baby in the office...ayo..I just couldn't resist it..I just had to take a pic with that cute lil thing...hehe.... SOOOOooooOOO Chubby!!Cannot wait for my own...nyeheheheheh.... WAT?!!! I'M PROUD TO ADMIT THAT...HAHAHAHAHA

me and cutie pie...hehe

THE STAR...

anwyays...we then went to FOS To get some shirts ...i saw this cute shirt...

"i'm hungry and you're a potato"....i wanted to get it!! not enuf money at that moment...haihhhh......hehe...

we then headed back lah...my legs almost gave way...walk too much ady....

emo: I miss my mum so so so much.........

one long day..............very loooonnnnnggg day.....

2006-11-01T07:22:00.000-08:00

TOday...Rose and Judah weren't around..so i was experimenting my new phone..haha... nothign much to do with the phone... so it was time for TAKING PICS!!!...HAHA...THESE ARE THE RESULTS OF WORKING WITHOUT OUR BOSS...NYEHEHEH..( i'm kidding Rose!!!!)

Kristy and I then went to see Paul later in the afternoon...so funny/...celebrity jeopardy!!>..We watched many clips on his computer...FUNNY CLIPS!!!...muahahahah.. Seriously..Paul is doin so well..I am so happyyy....hehe....

Seriously..i duno what they do in the office

Kristy and I...nothig to do mah!!

We went to visit Paul...Love ya...History Maker!!

And guess wat.my Sister decided to go for her prom at 6.30 pm today!!!! and it starts at 7.00pm!!! Rush gila to get her ready..her makeup and hair...and being the girl who never wears dresses....and makeup being a sin...for her... she was like "no! I won't put that earrings on!!"..."ewwww...i look like !@#$!!"...can u imagine..n i was late for prayer meeting already...hehhehe
But trust me ..she looked so amazing..and right now she is still there enjoying herself...haha...enjoy the pics!!
my lovely sister..

My sister and I....

Gorgeous ...ain't she?

DOn't kill me sam!!i love u!

Feature Sunday

2006-11-01T06:58:00.000-08:00

On Sunday we had feature Sunday...It was fantastic...the images on the wall are just wonderful..all these put together by our dear ol' darren...dolphin darren...hehe

The mime about two lovers was just superb...i loved it..so cute..matthew and christobelle...and terry's song..was so sweet..enuf to melt any gurl's heart...

The topic of the day was " BGR"...shared by Rose and Judah
I love the thing they said about why we as older ones shouldn't get involved too early...It 's becozof respect for one another...And how we are messing with someone else's future husband or wife,..if we don't want that to happen..we ahd better not mee with someone too early..u know wat i mean...

Hmm.....I guesss...it was a very timely msg....Not for me!!of coz!!...fo the younger ones..ahem...OF COZ!!!
ITS 11.15PM...
gosh..I AM SO HUNGRY!!...HAVEN'T EATEN DINNER....EEISH....WOAAHHH..... MAUKUENAJMGOMGLE,GEAGO,...GUESS WAT i'm saying...haha....

pst pst...sorry..that's my stomach growling...hahah...(LAME!!!!!)
love ya!!

I love this pic...anth n tien ming...hehe

Shu XIan n Stacey with Me!!

My dear Mangkuk..hehe..

hehey

2006-10-28T01:24:00.000-07:00

heyhey!!
I finaly get to come online..i am in the church's computer room..scanning some stuff
anyways.

wee!! i just wanna say if u wanna exercise and have lots of fun/..play squash!!

And...another interesting fact..tomolo..the topic will be on BGR...it has been a long time since we talked about that...hehe...brace yourself...

sigh..really have nothign interesting goin on in my life....just before i leave....
i wanna post a question...

where do i wanna see myself in 10 years time???

a fun day

2006-10-23T09:21:00.001-07:00

Sighhh...i am now sitting in from of a computer in a cybercafe....WHYYYY????
BECAUSE MY INTERNET CONNECTION HAS BEEN DOWN FOR THE LAST WEEK...SO IRRITATING!!!
anyways....
let me begin...today has been a wonderful day...!!woohoOOOooooOOoo...
first of all...i went shooping...GIVE ME AN "S"...GIVE ME A "H"...GIVE ME AN "O"...AND GIVE ME A "P"...AND WAT DOES THAT SPELL?? SHOP!!!!
it was great//i went there with ying..lynn..joshua chang...joey...jhim and his cousins...san san n gigi...wahh...we wwatched " the prestige"...i think it is a very good movie...but..a bit tragic la...
by the way..its JHIM's bday!!..A big shoutout to Tan Teik Jhim!!..Happy bday...20 dy..old man!!>..hehehe

and now the emo part la...i met that guy...oohhhh....not happening...NEXT...

AND FINALLY...i went for squash today...my first time...OOOHHH..I LOVEE ITTT...
royce, william n i.took turns...oohh...i can't serve for nuts wei...nyeeheheh... but I LOVE IT!!!!...
NOW..my arm hurts like crazeeee...can't even turn the steering wheel...cannot pull up my pants..cannot comb my hair,,aiyooohhhh...but no regrets!!

emo part again..i dearly miss my mum...i really am beginning to appreciate the times we spent together...I truly miss herrr....sighhhhh....love u mum..and stop thanking me please....

a fun day

2006-10-23T09:21:00.000-07:00

Sighhh...i am not sitting in from of a computer in a cybercafe....WHYYYY????
BECAUSE MY INTERNET CONNECTION HAS BEEN DOWN FOR THE LAST WEEK...SO IRRITATING!!!
anyways....
let me begin...today has been a wonderful day...!!woohoOOOooooOOoo...
first of all...i went shooping...GIVE ME AN "S"...GIVE ME A "H"...GIVE ME AN "O"...AND GIVE ME A "P"...AND WAT DOES THAT SPELL?? SHOP!!!!
it was great//i went there with ying..lynn..joshua chang...joey...jhim and his cousins...san san n gigi...wahh...we wwatched " the prestige"...i think it is a very good movie...but..a bit tragic la...
by the way..its JHIM's bday!!..A big shoutout to Tan Teik Jhim!!..Happy bday...20 dy..old man!!>..hehehe

and now the emo part la...i met that guy...oohhhh....not happening...NEXT...

AND FINALLY...i went for squash today...my first time...OOOHHH..I LOVEE ITTT...
royce, william n i.took turns...oohh...i can't serve for nuts wei...nyeeheheh... but I LOVE IT!!!!...
NOW..my arm hurts like crazeeee...can't even turn the steering wheel...cannot pull up my pants..cannot comb my hair,,aiyooohhhh...but no regrets!!

emo part again..i dearly miss my mum...i really am beginning to appreciate the times we spent together...I truly miss herrr....sighhhhh....love u mum..and stop thanking me please....

FACEDOWN

2006-10-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

facedown.....
i saw a man kneeling with his whole body touching his knees....and his hands clasps at the back of his head....with THAT word "FACEDOWN"

It amazes me...that how one word as simple as that can strike me so hard....
facedown...all we have to do is come before our great and mighty God facedown.... and all is right....our attitide and ourselves u know...we become selfless...thinking only of HIM...u know..:)

FACEDOWN.....

think about it..peepsss

Quiet Thoughtsss.....

2006-10-12T08:54:00.000-07:00

Just looking for a carpark at my condominium got me thinking about God's plan. We know that God is in control of everything but we don't actually think...I MEAN THINK ABOUT IT...
Today, I joined Heng Jo's Cg at Subang and so I reached home rather late. And usually at around 11pm, there will be no spaces left to park. EAch time , I would pray for a carpark despite how late it is..And u knwo.each time I would get one..

NOW..the thing is. I only start praying when i enter the carpark...wat can i say.hehe..lack of foresight....
And so...i was just thinking..If i started praying only when i entered the carpark... That means that God knew beforehand that I would pray at that very moment. He knew that when i entered the carpark, I would utter that same prayer....and plan everything so that I could have a carpark at that moment...
To me..its like "wow"...I guess i neveer thought of it...How God's thoughts work..u know..How far it goes...way beyond what we know..or what we plan...Amazing huh??Think about that...........

He is faithful all the time...Don't doubt that...

BRRRR..ITS COLD OUT HERE

2006-10-10T08:55:00.000-07:00

One fine yesterday, Ying lynn and I decided to go up to genting since we didn't have work n classes...So we went for a day'ss trip....

Below are teh pics..honestly it was freezing man...!!!!!

we were at the foothill of genting

Blur pic=resulting from the shaking hands of the photographer(COLDD MAH!)

teeheeheeee

lol...ying is reli freezing...

Super cold wei..Don't play play wei

LOOK CAREFULLY...THINK??

HINT HINT..IT HAS BEEN RATHER HAZYYYY......

SCROLL DOWN.....

iT'S OUTSIDE LYNN'S HOUSE...imagine what the aunties do...too bad..auntie no#4 wasnt't there.....

LOL...hahahahah

Accountability group makan!!

2006-10-08T20:09:00.000-07:00

Last week...we had a small makan for our accountability group... neways..if u guys duno...cherie boey is my accountibility leader....amazing..
She is kind and soo caring..and best of all.......SHE CAN COOK....!!!!HAHAHA...

Cherie!!

anways...thos who were there: cherie..ME...julie and annora..hehe

It was good la...we got to "berbonding"...hehehe..talk and have fun...

We should get married..ehehe

YUM YUM YUM!!!

Julie

Happy bday shoe shoe...hehe

2006-10-08T19:44:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, 8th October, Sunday......

It was an early morning where i had to prepare//don't forget the cake..the candles..the tissue...matches.......so messed up....brains also like a bit dead... It was just early and i was still....a bit dead...

So anyways..yesterday was shu xian's bday!!...Finally 18..sweet eighteen....hehe.. She is sweet k.. Guys out there....she is SINGLE AND UNAVAILABLE...HHEHE... So this is wat we did at cg...guess was we did?? I will gif you a clue...something girls love to do and do it very well....

Take Pictures LAH!!!!!!

(Wah super long to upload..........still wwaaaaiting...)

The BDAY GURL!!

Form 5 cgeeee

Enjoy!!ciao

simply weirdddd

2006-10-04T04:24:00.000-07:00

Hmm...Just yesterday nite..i had an extremely weird dream...

First of all...I dreamed that my mum came home and "surprise!! I'm Home"...
Ahahahha...Shock of my life...and you know how dreams tend to feel so real.... I tot it was true man... was really happy...hehehe....But anyways...woke up to find out that it was just a dream....But a sweet one though...
The weird thing was that there were a few a few guys from church who were also in the dream...haha..the funny thing was that thier legs grew like 2 feet longer...So they were like super tall with super long legs...I won't mention any names...ehehe...:)

Anyways...its been a long time since i have been blogging...I have come to realize that in the past few days....things that you thought seemed true and dependable really arent's as reliable as they seem...SAD....
whatever it is...Steph....kampateh!!

nothing is too big for GOd

2006-09-25T07:37:00.000-07:00

Thingshappen allde time....But God is faithful...all the time ...forever...so faithful..
Take my life
All that I have to give
Take my world
just inhabit all ot it
Take my dreams
Make me assuredly YOurs

Thank you Jesus...
Trusting always...

thank u ...auntie 1 2 3.

2006-09-25T07:30:00.000-07:00

Dear aunties....
you have no idea how much u guys have blessed me....

Dear auntie 1,
congrats on ur excellent results..U deserve it all...GOd has truly blessed u..What ever u go through...now or in the future..do let me knoe...I will be by yourside.. U know who u are auntie 1...ehehehe...:) i love u so much..miss the times in alevels...:)

Dear auntie 2,
I think u know who u are... honestly, your independent soul and strong spirit has baffled me.... Pray for your family...things will be alright!!! I am sure of that.. Nothign is too big for God..you know that...we just hav to lay all these down at the altar... thanks for always calling n being there...all the mahjong-ing timess... wahhh...i lurveee it...:)...luv ya so much!

Dear auntie 3,
i am so glad that i know you..You are an amazing gurl..you may not read this..i so appreciate ur care and concern over my life...N thank you for everything...
You have truly blessed me too with your jovial animated self..:) trust God always... don't carry the burden by yourself...I love ya!!!!

Fareweelll...so saddd wei

2006-09-20T06:19:00.000-07:00

Sigh..so gonna miss all of u alh...I love ya all!! Dim sum on fri k!!

ANyways..all the best in everything!!Jer, Zyang, Paul...Ashley!!

Gonna miss all the unclessss...

Poserz wei!

Auntie-Jer-Auntie-Auntie

de Two warwick students...

Sob Sob sob......

Hey hey!!sSigh...yesterday..I got a bad food poisoning..It's the type where u have no time to run to the toilet...hehe...anyways...was vomiting and havng bad diarrhea...bad case man...
I went home early from work to rest...At night I went for a farewell...Sighh..SO many leaving...All the good frens...anwyays...It was at ZI YAng's house lah.. about 20 ppl i think...
So anyways..as usal...there were three aunties...and we reached there first...and guess wat was next? MAHJONG LAH!!!!somore more Zi Yang's grandma was there..(mahjong kaki)..hehe..so cute his grandma...:)
Not forgetting "wang besar !wang besar!"...as usual...lah...crazee ...i just sad watching with ying n lynn...:)

Anyways..here are the pics...

famile reunion

2006-09-20T06:11:00.000-07:00

HELLO!!..lONG time no blog dy..

Anyways...just wanted to share a very memorable experience with everyone!

Last Sunday, My very thoughtful sister brought sailo and I to Prego!! And u know, we only ordered the main meal..(if that's wat u call it..hehee)..Wait!!..For those of you who do not know, my sister works in Prego..
OKie..Continue..
We ordered only main meals, but they served us with appetizers, a course soup, and finally desserts...wah...Tell you...SO much!! SOmemore got that plain bread thingee lah...haha...When dipped in soup super nice! yum yum...eheheh... so anyways.. INmy mind i thought the bill was gonna be super mahal...But u know wat...her super cool chef who arranged the extra dishes didn't even charge the other stuff on the bill..PLuS...He signed 50% off the bill!!!>..So rite...those who wanna work in the kitchen..don't hesitate..Great perks lie awaiting for you!!ho ho ho..:)

But it was a great nite..i got to spend time with sailo and sam...to me it really meant a lot...It was fun u know...eating togetha in a 5 star hotel...We hung out at nite and i got to chat with sai lo ...ahem..(u know the serious heart to heart TALK)...NO LAH..HEHE..
we talked a lot about reality ...It was very eye opening and so personal...It was so awesome...:)

more pics!!!

2006-09-17T11:44:00.000-07:00

planning camp...

2006-09-17T11:21:00.000-07:00

wAHHH..the planning camp was so productive...soooo fun man...
This year's camp is gonna be a balst...trust me ...!!!.You guys better sign up man.. it's absolutely GENG LOR!!!
wah..i reallly had so much fun with everyone...Got to know Nina better...hehe... And...even had heart to heart session with Rose...if that's wat u call it... cool wei...hehe..

see ya all at camp!!>.
Cheers y'all..!!

Coolll MOU??!!

Ehehe...we were lying on each other's tummy...

MY GOODNESSSSSSS....!!!

tired

2006-09-14T08:06:00.000-07:00

SICK!!
DROWSY!!
COLD!!
I feel like sleeping...my nose is blocked..my throat=sore...
feel so tire.d..

GOd Almighty , SOverEiGN King...
JEsus CHrist,To yOU I sinG,
YouR GraCe Always SO AbundaNt,
YouR Love AlwaYs emBracing...
HOw I love You, How I want You
You are My onE trUe Love....

GOd take care of this familyyy....

What a day!!

2006-09-13T08:27:00.000-07:00

macaroni and chees

Hmmm...
what a day lah...
anyways...TOday...I had to "willingly" send my sister to work... I don't mind doin that at all...BUT...guess wat???!!!!!! It was so atrociously jammed!! And i nearly knocked into a blue SWIFT...tHE EVIL GUY GLARED AT ME...AND POINTED HIS FINgER..LIKE U KNOW...HE WAS FURIOUS... and i was just so mad...it was just a small mistake..DIDN'T KNOCK ALSO!!!! TOO MUCH...HMMPHH....and he had such thick big lips... like what darren would say" can fit two big macs into his mouth"...hehe... As kind and good-hearted as i can be...i just could not tolerate that kind of mannerism...EEISHHHHH!!!!!!!..BRREEAATTHHHEEEEE....

okie...chirp chirp chirp...i am fine now...NEXT!

TOday.after work...we had a leaders' prayer meeting...Cool lah...prayed for a breakthrough in our own lives...I think it was great...

and wat was even better...Joelle had a word from God..

"WE HAVE TO REMEMBER WHO GOD REALLY IS..THREE WORDS..HE IS ABLE, SOVEREIGN....AND.........(i forgot)..i think its WORTHY."..WHICH WE SO OFTEN FORGET.. We must always remember how great is HE...

i miss mum a lot....so so much....so so os os os much...........

Next..this is the good part...My sister cooked macaroni and cheese for dinner... I rushed home at about 10.15pm.. As I stepped into the house...I could smell ..CHEESE!!!MY LOVE ..MAUAHAHAH....
didn't look that great..but it TASTED GREAT K!!!!...
JUST LOVE HER MAN...LOVE HER SO SO MUCH...

Busy tired n couch potato-ness

2006-09-12T06:35:00.000-07:00

Firstly....my life is gearing towards being "the potato"..
Sigh...with great sorrow...I wish to announce that my "nap" in the afternoon has made me somewhat a potato...Imagine...I sleep for 4 huors straight in the afternoon ... And if that's not bad enough..I still feel sleepy after that..I reckon if I don't force myself to wake up..or if that "pinky and the brain" song...doesn't play on my hp...then I think i could sleep until 12 maybe?..Madness okay..aiyo...
Anyway..i am gonna put a stop to that!!>.BE DISCIPLINE...!! (who am i kidding?!)

Anyway...I guess DICIPLINE plays a very important role for me... I am slacking in devotion...And really...I feel ashamed..
Secondly, I promised myself to wake up n exercise..again...FAILURE!!
Thirdly, I have procrastinated folding the clothes for a week...Now that's bad...LAZEE mah...
what to do...

Church is gettting busy wei....but fun...so COME FOR THE conference if you are free!!
IT'S GONNA BE MEGA K...!!
Don't miss the opportunity ...Prepare ur hearts now k! EXPECT SOMETHING!!

love, God's preciouslilchild

eeish...

2006-09-10T09:36:00.000-07:00

Eeeekkkkkkk!!!!

i have two almost-pimple pimples coming out....

eeish...ARRGHHH...!! TONERS..MOISTURIZERS...CLEANSERS..WHERE ARE U!!!!!!
YEAH RITE...i dun even own a cleanser man...
crazzee meh..ask me to use these stuffffffff!!...IMPOSSIBLE..

gosh...i had better do soemthign about my face condition...so ugleeee....eewww

soon i'll like some phantom of the opera ...just that a prettier version..
MUAHAHAHAHAHAH

\

cggg

2006-09-10T09:33:00.000-07:00

my wONdErfFULl CG...

picss from the airport

2006-09-10T00:49:00.000-07:00

Mark ju n I

Markkk n I

MEMORIESSSS

2006-09-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

Anyway...since i sent Mark off to England, I began to feel nostalgic about things.
Remember, on the 23 June, my mother left for America. That left a big empty hole in my heart...more like life...
I miss you so so much mum...It's scary coz whenever i see u ..u seem to loook different each time....Soemtimes i even forget what its like to eat and laugh with you... But fear not!!>.I promise it will always be in my memories..I do remember u know..especially when i close my eyes and think about u...hehe..

I LOVE YA MUM...

TilL we Meet AgAin....

2006-09-08T11:19:00.000-07:00

As i stare on the glossy tiles that i heavily step upon, my mind is flooded by thoughts and memories that made me who i am today. Yeah..sure...even as Matthew , Stefen , Julie and I were chatting away, I couldn't help feeling that heavy emotion that caused me to feel so sad and yet so happy for MArk at the same time. I watched as heads turn and ppl rising to their feet only to welcome Mark who was walking to us.

"TICK-TOCK, TICK-TOCK...the clock is ticking and time is moving fast.."

Over the past year, Mark told me his plans that he will be moving to England with his family permanently. At that time, to me, was still a very long time away... And so the fact that he was leaving didn't really affect me at all..However, today... after a very quick one and a half year...reality really sank in and hit me HARD!!
SIGHHHH!!!

It's so weird how a person can feel so happy and sad at the same time... It's like.. hey..I am so excited about your future and what it's gonna bring... but ..u know.. I wish u didn't have to go..

I am just thankful tht u were the friend i could always count on you know... knowing that you would always be there to support the decisions i were to make...telling me when i am wrong and at fault... Somehow..I know that there will never be another you..but get this...I know..that u will bless another soul the way u have blessed me..
You see...God has a way bigger plan...u knw..a plan bigger and supermega... way beyond what we can ask or ever imagine...and so...I am just so ecstatic and glad for what you are about to discover in this journey....

I just wanna say a big THANKS!!
AND GIVE U A BIG HUG!!!
and until then...TILL WE MEET AGAIN...AND WE WILL..!!! U "D BETTER COME BACK MEXT YEAR...FRIEND!!!!!!!

yo Ppl check this Out!

2006-09-07T10:30:00.000-07:00

By the way..this are pics of my cool sis...the one whom i love with all my heart!!
She cooks well...but guess wat..she is unavailable guys!!..in your dreams...
so check this amazing young talented gurlll out!!...woohoo!!
I love u so much..sammy!!

life is full of surrprisesss!!

2006-09-05T07:08:00.000-07:00

Hahahah...yesterday my sister came home ..."bang" went the door..and her voice rang from the hall.."steph...i bought u something!!"..
And so i rushed out to find that she had gotten me a brown bag...that was so totful since i really needed one that could fit my stuff in...n moreover...she got me a brown bag!!...hehe...so cool..NOW THAT'S WHAT I CALL A SISTER!!...BUT I WAS KINDA SHOCKED THOUGH..HAHA...

then...surprisingly...she said" i got myself a cheongsam"...can u imagine..haha...dun get me wrong..my sister is pretty and hot k... it's just that she nvr wears a dress...hehe....so she puts on the blue chinese "thing" she got... and "tada!!"...Cool weh..!!haha..i so love her...life is really full of surprises...

before that...hehe....i fogot to mention...on sunday...we had fellowship of the aunties on sunday..rite after church...i was the out one k...lynn...roe n eva had the same shirt and shhades...yay..i am gonna get mine soon..haha..
we bought a packet of rojak n stomped right into mac d'ss...n ate there...super auntie...haha....n bought only fries n a drink...but it was super fun...haha...
wat on earth am i gonna do without u three...????????haha...
then..monday...lynn n i went to pasar malam to eat tong yuen...haha...super fun lah...i went to her house after that...n played...that typing game..some "typing of the dead" game...hahaha...
if u have played that game..good for u..it was super fun..some game where u have to type words to kill ppl...excitingggggg.....
apparently...i wasn't the one screaming..it was eva n ying...hahaa.....

n finally..today..TUESDAY...i had a great day at work lah..:)..went around to pass the unity conference posters n forms to Gladsounds n Canaanland...

Then i went to meet up with mark.....hmmmmmmm......who's gonna leave soon... that' sucks man....leaving this fri...
I'M SO GONNA MISS U LIKE CRAZY....WAT CAN I SAY...U ARE AN AMAZING FREN..SO FULL OF SURPRISES...REM WHEN U TOOK ME FOR THAT JAZZ THING FOR MY BDAY...N TO ACTOR'S STUDIO...SO COOL.......so gonna miss u man..:)

So...we went to watch click...haha...super nice...i recommend...i cried in the show...quite emo lah...but good ending...:)

we had a good chat about life when we were younger...
well mark..see ya when we are older....when u are married with kids!!!!....hahaha

love...me!!

What d ya think?

2006-09-01T09:05:00.000-07:00

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This is what we do in the office!!

2006-08-31T10:00:00.000-07:00

Hahha..posers!!!
nothign to do lah...see the crazee things we do!!!

Aiyo......there's more!

family outingggg

2006-08-29T09:32:00.000-07:00

just came ohme from the movie snakes on a plane...not bad...i went with my dad n sis...really cool lah..we went to mac d for dinner...and headed for the movie...

its been really a long time since we went out together...finally it feels like a family again...
Eveyrone can get so busy at times..we hardly go out together as a family...
since mum is gone...doesn't mean we can't get together..:)
sam u are a great person...thanks so much for your time though u were so tired...
and dad....same lah...hehe...

mum..we are doin great here..so no worries...come home soon!!!!...
see ya soon...love u so so so so much,muaks!

wHat caN OnE lifE dO?

2006-08-28T05:22:00.000-07:00

hmm...
i just came back from the IMPACT conference...what can i say..it was great..awesome.. mindblowiNG... NOT TO MENTION...PAINFUL...
it just goes to say that i haven't been doing enough exercises...hehe...my whole body was liek some grandma...aaiyoyoyo....oh..we had to do..push-ups... and those horrible half squats..h.aha...but i did enjoy it...:)...there were so many workshops...this was one of it..."FELLOWSHIP OF THE BODY"...
there were three others...fellowship of the mind, heart and soul...really... it was truly great..:)

then the concert....again...GREAT!!!....REMINDS ME OF OUR VERY OWN BAND...HEHE

i guess the thing that was most personal to me was the carnival at prima selayang..something like community service..but i onw't say it was ..it was more like gettng to know ppl time...It was wonderful...
I met this young girl named Thuluk..indian young chubby gurl..so cute..
she wanted to play a game at the carnival but she was holding this small malaysian flad... she then turned to me and said" NAH YOU HOLD THE MERDEKA"...SO ADORABLE... bfore we left she came up to hug me..i really was so touched... love them all.. really i do.... She also wrote soemthing on my book.."i love yu to mac"...hehe... so cute rite...

i am so glad...i went to the conference..plus i got to know my pastor better... i stayed with her the whole five days...so yeah...she's really great...

It is graet to meet new frens from malaysia...and really..from different churches.. coz i know..that we are all on fire for our God...so amazing lah...
God is great...

anyway...what can one life do..i totally strayed away from the title... the thing is..our individula life is really so valuable..we can impact whoever we want to ..if we really want too... Often we look down on the ability and talents that we have...but really...its' not really like tat.... God is a great God..and we are His children.. we have Him to watch our back..so if we wanna do soemthign for someone or for a good cause..just do it..u never know...we could impact a whole nation... god is great!!

Aunties spending time together....

2006-08-21T04:50:00.000-07:00

AUNTIES GETOGETHER!!

last nite...ying roe and eva came over to my house for a sleepover!!

Firstly, we mahjonged lah....(no need to ask lah)....it has been a long time since i played together...I was totally off form...but ying roe ar....on form..keep winning... really mahjong queen!!.. Yesterday was crazy nite man!!! like everyone sudah high...scary...haha...eva n ying are gila !!!....;)

Then....about 12.30 we went to mamak yum cha with my sister and her friend. minum until about 2am. Talked about everything under the moon...I am really guilty weh... i talked about some ppl. i felt really like an auntie man...chi chi cha cha ...

then we came home and watched dvd..First movie was MULAN!!! so nice!! the songs are cun...hehe....then we watched four brothers which was lagi keng. So nice! I think it lasted until aobut 6 am. nearl mati man...however i was not tired at all only a bit lah...after that i went to sleep until about 9.45 am coz i had piano class at 10 am.

After i came home, there ying roe was sitting comfortably watchign walk the line. So i joined her. we then made mushroom soup and turned on another movie!! how insane is that. Four shows in 24 hours.. more like 12 hours.....haha... we watched YOU'VE GOT MAIL!!!!...SO SO SO SO SO SO ROMANTIC!! i lurvvveedddd that movie ever since i was young .So cute, funny and romantic....yay yay!!...

it ended when ying had to go home and i feel asleep lah...

wat a great day...

Sister FUN!

2006-08-20T21:11:00.000-07:00

As usual yesterday I went to church .We had high praise. Cool. My sister said she would come but she could not wake up.hehehe. (normal-lah)..haha..
My dad msged me and told me to go for martial arts class by myself. Thankfully my sister return at the WRONG TIME so she had to accompany me. phew. or i would have to go alone and tat would be quite sucky.
And so after that, sam and i went to yum cha. It was fun lah. It has been such a long time since we actually sat down and talk. We talked about everything . esp our family.
Then, at night , dad came and took us all out to eat dinner. It was absolutely encouraging since we had not gone out for dinner as a family in such a long while. My dad and my sis are doing really great. They both get together very well now, understanding each other's situation. I am so proud of my sister. All grown up.:)

Mum. I miss you so much. Though i am getting used to it, but I really hope you come home soon. I love you.

soMehoW, i alwAys wonder how Perfect My FAmilY is....

rEsultS arE OUT!!!

2006-08-18T01:21:00.000-07:00

EEish..
what a day...full of different emotions...SOme Sad...and Some Just filled with JOY>>.... unfortunately...today.. i wasn't all that filled with joy..but thank God... I didn't do badly..
For those who think you didn't do well...or just sad about ur results... Don't be... there is always a next time..and also..it doesn't mean that u are not good..
(unless of course u didn't stud at all)..sometimes we makes silly mistakes and we just don't know lah...u know...

For those did well...CONGRATS...I A M HAPPY FOR YOU....YOUR HARD WORK REALLY PAID OFF... gOD BLESS YOU....

sighh..finally..my worst fears are over....

Pesta updates!!

2006-08-17T04:22:00.000-07:00

Wahh..I finally got the pics from Pesta!!

enjoy!

Such a tiring Day!!

2006-08-17T04:15:00.000-07:00

TOday...I wokE up at 4 am...Alo..its like some of you are still awake dotaing.. well i don't know.
Thing is, i accompanied Rose to the airport to send the Sarawak mission team!! woohoo.. all excited and ready to go...
When i reached church..(forgive me God)..i nearly feel asleep so mmny times during devotion...even during worship...ayoyoyo....i was like...(faster end , faster end).. Also, I was pinching myself as hard as i could...but still coudn't work..
i promise..I was sleeping with my eyes open... I really hate that feeling..

Ooh...AaAaaah...tomorrow..results will be OUT!!...wat lah... now i m like super nervous lah..tee hee...
scary ...
wonder what am I gonna do if I don't get what I want...dear God..please help me...

Oh yeah..forgot to mention that I walked into a glass door... *gasps..*screams...
fortunately , the glass stood steadfast and saved my life...nyehehe.. as embarrassing as it was..it was really funny man...and not to mention..painful...
Evil Kristy...laughed like crazy ...!!!..Fren@!!!

What a week....phewwwwwww

God will see me through

2006-08-16T09:17:00.000-07:00

Even when times are tough.
God will see me through.

Even when I feel lonely and down.
God will see me through.

Even when things get tiring and exhausting
God will see me through.

Even if I am at the verge og breaking down.
God will see me through

God will see me through
God will see me through
God will see me through
God will see me through
God will see me through
God will see me through
God will see me through.

Yee meng's bday

2006-08-13T20:56:00.000-07:00

Yee Meng's Birthday~!Yesterday I went to Oasis in Bangsar.. Wah..it was sorta cool coz i met a lot of frens that i hardly meet u know..miss them a bit..hehe.. it was nice talkign and getting to know some of them even making new frens as well..
Its great to see so many ppl come together to fellowship and stuff..

Later , they all went clubbing and drinking which i didn't go lar ...
Then , Jhing Sun sent me home..thanks so much!!!

Familee Reeoonion...

2006-08-13T08:03:00.000-07:00

hehe..
TOday we had a family reunion at a restaurant...It was made me nostalgic ...we had always done that...but today it was really incomplete...I guess it feels different when parents are not around....
Though in my daily life I don't feel much ....but thing is.. at times like this it feels different...not whole at all...

What a great family..always asking n really concerned for me n sis...Sigh.. things were really different...There was so much of respect and love...kids were running around.. screaming...
seeing my cousins was cool coz haven't seen them for such a long time...Everyone is always busy..and to get together is really difficult at times... But u know..a family will always be a family..whether we argue or not...it has been so evident in mine... But God's love prevails...it does...

His love unites all...no matter how big our differences are...His love is everlasting...and...brings all from everywhere together...

NothIng iS MOre ImPORTant than YoUR FamIleee....

another tiring day

2006-08-11T08:47:00.000-07:00

hmmm
I have been almost out the wholeday..aiyo...about 10 sth...krsity and i went to megamall to search for some important stuff...waled for quite a long time...then we went back..about 1..we were to visit lily koo..so we waited for her at pudu lrt station...apparently she forgot..so i drove to taman midah...and picked her up..again..i drove to leisure mall..i think i will be reli good with roads by the end of this month..hehe...so anyway...it was fruitful...lily is such a great gurl... knows what she wants....just wished she could come to church...reli miss her though...

hmmm...2ndly..
I realised..lately...I haf been rather an emotionless person... things that used to affect me..won't affect me now..its been like that since mum left..I guess i have to grow up...and be mature...I have to rise up to the occasion...its hard..but .yeah..
I won't show feelings...no more...kinda have a really hard heart...i think... the weird thing is that..when it comes to worshipping God...i flood with tears...to me its when i am most vulnerable bfore God...liek He's touching me..n i feel great..and refreshed after that..

God is awesome..

thank God..pheww

2006-08-09T07:03:00.000-07:00

Wah..today spoke in chapel..to the form 1 and 2...so cute..miss sri sempurna..best school in the world...hehe
was kinda nervous..
we spoke on trusting God...
Psa 9:10 was the cerse I used...but forogt to refer balik...nervous i gues...hehe...
this is somehting i am reli bad at..
It was cool though...they participated...

O God..hear our cry..and bring salvation to them...

I trust tat in Your time...things will change...

Your preciouslilchild

Mark:a great reliable fren...

2006-08-09T00:41:00.000-07:00

Mark leong
...wise..dependable...RESPONSIBLE....thoughtful...witty....honest...kind....

So many ways to describe you mark...really gonna miss you ...thanks for being there for me...always..listening to me and my complains...disturbing me...encouraging me...u may not know..but i really do appreciate it..when u leave to England its gonna be hard...sighhh....you tell me la..how to let go...hmmph...

But thankfully...we haf had so much of good time together...even at Thai....the time we missed the flight...lol/....hahaha...even in BB...I so appreciate you.... thanks for backing me up at times when I needed it...
You are really a true friend..
Thank you thank u...thank you for good memories...at KLCC...the jazz festival... thanks even during the time at Actor's Studio...Thanks for having me as a fren lar...
(who wouldn't..hehe...)

Now...I wanna wish you all the blessings...and hope ur dreams and the desires of your heart will come to past....I am sure it will...Continue seeking God's will k...
Let me know if u need anything..

finally...a lil something for you...

Friendship is like the breeze,
You can't hold it,
Smell it,
Taste it,
Or know when it's coming,
But you can always feel it,
And you'll always know it's there,
It may come and then go,
But you can know it'll always be back.

Love in Christ....Stephanie...the great....aka...preciouslilchild of God....

haha

Over over over!!

2006-08-06T19:58:00.000-07:00

Flute exam is finished...as in finish today..and also finish lar...it was quite bad...comsidering the effort i put in..sigh
Nyways...haf been really thinking...abuot you mum... its been a long time since i saw you...
if u are reading this...sam n i ...we are doin fine... missing u a lot actually lar..
heard that its really hot there..so better not fall sick ar k...
love ya mum..
and dad...thanks for the support today..love u too..:)muaks...

What an Awesome prayer meeting!!

2006-08-02T10:38:00.000-07:00

I just wanna say...those who missed prayer meeting missed out on everything..I wouldn't give anything in exchange for today. When Pastor Christian spoke on new revelation, it was as if i had been smacked on my face...It has been months since i was waiting for a msg like this...and today it reli took off..I must say...i have never felt so fulfilled and enlightened...All these while i knew i lacked hunger and passion...But... i tried to rekindle that fire...I was always waiting for a Word or something than will just wake my spirit...And today was it... When i went out there for prayer...it was liek prophecy man..He talked about my past...so accurately..I knew it had to be from God.. I just felt...so amazing..because I felt God really ministering to me....I can't say how blessed I was..n how happy I was to receive His touch..I just felt God's awesom presence...God Is Real..He is...Don't ever doubt it...He's love is real..and everlasting...!!!!

First DaY of Workkk....

2006-08-01T04:03:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...First day of work..lets see...
In the morning..excited as i was...i woke up like super early..work starts at about 8.30am...but i reached there late...coz i had to take my sister to work first..then only head to work...However..my sister ..with her bad judgement of time told me tat there would be enuf time to get me to church on time...So..i trusted her... I realised that I was gonna be late..so i sped all the way to church...
Reachign there..devotion had already begun...Pheww..i slipped in quietly ....And Pastor Christian was speaking...he is from perth btw...
yeah...and then there were two cool dudes rapping n stuff...totally not what i expected for our first devotion..AWESOME>.haha....
NEWAYS....things got better when they asked kristy n i to accompany this group of six from perth to Mid Valley...wow...my first day..n i get to go to mid valley..n SHOP!!...totally cool..
bUT they are great ppl....i love them..too bad they are flying bacck so soon...today wasnot work for me...it was pure fun...nice ppl nice day...
Thanks guys...u guys made my day!!

Big Day tomoro..

2006-07-31T07:29:00.000-07:00

I will be working tomolo...
i am excited but nervous and scared...
hope i am capable of all i am asked of..
Must wake up early...
Must prepare tonite..hehe
I have never worked in my life before..
Pray for me!!
I love u mum and sam n dad...:)

God is Love..

2006-07-30T21:57:00.000-07:00

My life's A meSs...

2006-07-30T21:35:00.000-07:00

Sigh...
Dear Sam,
Haven't seen you in awhile...miss you a lot..It's been 4 days since u came home... I Really miss you gurl...we nvr do things we used to do..tat's beCauSe I selDoM see you...
You better come HOME...
Dear mum...
its been a whole month since you HAf been gone...I really MIss you..Hope U come Back soon...I am adjusting to the Lifestyle here...without you..but i still miss you soso much..I love you...N it has always been tat waY...
Dear Daddy..
Thanks for teaching me How to clean the sink...though it was gross.. but I DID it...hehe..Thanks for everything..esp..vitamin M..hehe..I really appreciate it.. Even the lunch tat we always had to rush..but i do appreciate them...

Dear family..I love you all....

WhaTT LOVe is all ABout

2006-07-30T10:11:00.000-07:00

What a grand thing, to be loved!
What a grander thing still, to love!

- Victor Hugo -

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast,
it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered,
it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

- The Bible : 1 Corinthians 13:4 -

2006-07-30T08:46:00.000-07:00

Joyce...Lydia....n me

2006-07-30T08:40:00.000-07:00

RInnahhhh and joyce and mee....

AwardSS Day!!

2006-07-30T08:19:00.000-07:00

On the 29th July....
The 10th KL BB COy had its 9th ANnual Enrolment and Awards day...Everyone was busy doin what they had to do...
SO many things to bring and so many things to do...
It was def exciting...though I didn't have much to do...nor did i have much to receive...as in awards.. Thinking back about the old times really make me wonder how fast time flies.... I have been in the Boys' Brigade for nine years since it first started....
I have seen ppl coming out and joining the BB....
I have also seen friendships that have blossomed...Lives changed....Characters built upon strong foundations...
How on earth can I ever let go....No way....I am blue-blooded....Its in me...I love it..I love the Ppl... I love how its run....
SOmetimes...I WISh i had more time for everything....
awards day this year..
Great...many members received their awards with so much of joy..haha...i was once like tat... The dance was a successful one....and no surprise to this...Mark Leong won the claange trophy again....Gosh ..Mark..I am gonna miss u like crazy!!
Performances by the juniors..esp the pre juniors....was great...hehe...so adorably cute..hehe.. in their different costumes....
it was a long day...but a great day...